Middle School Leader Update!!

So if you guys don't already know I'm the leader for a bunch of 6th grade girls. I love it so much. They are so special sometimes I see these mature young ladies asking the tough questions. Then all of a sudden they are laughing and playing tag. This is a incredibly weird time of there life and they are so great. I feel like a kid myself and it is so fun to just let go and laugh for hours on end with them.

Ok so update!!!

We went over Cane and Abel. Yeah deep right? Our pastor does such a good job at making middle schoolers relate to the stories. We got into small group and started off productive and focusing on the talk. Then it just went crazy, all of a sudden we are talking about poop and laughing our heads off. You know the balance of serious and light is so important. 10% serious 90%fun. That is what I tell my girls, that way we get some stuff done. Honestly they were bonding together( being girls). I wouldn't want anything else. 

Why am I questioning?

I feel so confused right now about what I am going to do next year. I know I am going to be a missionary, I know that but I keep praying and asking God for clarity on whether to go to college next year or on a long term mission trip. I don't want to do what I think is right if it is not God's will. He is in control. I seem to be in the dark right now. I want to understand but I guess it is a time of waiting on God. Please pray that I have wisdom for my future.

This is over by my house. Stuff like this remember what God is capable of everyday. 

This year

So this is my senior year of high school, I am realizing how quickly my time left in my home town is going. Will I have left God's mark here? That is what has been really on my mind. What difference have I made? Then I see my middle school girls I lead at my church. Their smiling faces. I can not begin to explain how much they mean to me. We have cried and laugh together. I think oh my mission trips  . . . Emily and Lilo, I pray for them everyday hoping this year I can see them again in Ensenada. Yet, I see the places where I have failed to spread God light where it is desperately needed from my school campus to friends. They have put up such thick brick walls against the Lord that all i can do is keeping taking down the bricks. So have I made a difference? I think for the most part I wont fully ever know but I have to trust that I was following God's plan and he will and has used me for his glory.


Oh update! Just started applying for my number 1 college!!! Please pray that I get in.

Walking in Christ Through Struggle

God didn't intend for us as Christians to walk on a cloud spreading sparkles around the world. How can we expect to appreciate the good if we don't first struggle and go through hard situations. In Romans 8:17 it says"and if children, then heirs - heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with him in order that we may also be glorified with him." It is okay to mourn, be mad, sad, whatever, that is how we are able to handle difficult situations. Just remember that God is next to you crying for your pain. Don't blame him please, God will provide the light at the tunnel. Have hope that the pain will subside, that can use whatever poop you have to face in the end to grow is kingdom. From making you stronger to mentoring someone who will go through the same thing. Some grief may never fully leave you but don't become bitter because of it in the end. If you are going through something I want to pray for you. Please comment below (if you don't want to say what that is fine). Please be in prayer for your fellow brothers and sisters in faith when they are struggling.

Take the chance

Just because God doesn't always seem to give a giant sign to talk to someone doesn't mean you shouldn't. Sometimes there are little opportunities just to say something or acknowledge someone's feelings... Take the chance. If you ever have a possibility to spread God's light, why wouldn't you? Some base there actions on how they feel or if they care enough (I am guilty of this at times) but honestly it doesn't matter what you feel at that moment; God commands us to be the light in the darkness . The bible says nothing in their about if you feel in the mood. Jesus never just took a day off because he was tired everything he did had a purpose. So go ahead take a chance, be the light. 

I love comments! Tell me what your thinking, when have you taken the chance? 

Keep Calm and Have Faith

Lately I have been reading Romans. This book is so legit. These are people that are being  persecuted in the heart of extremely hostile environment. Paul writes this letter with such conviction and blunt wisdom; I catch myself constantly in awe and reverence to the profound words.
What has recently caught me off guard the most is Romans 5 to 8. Our faith brings hope. I think at least I take for advantage the fact that faith is so important to live in God's plan. I am personally a person who naturally wants control of my environment. So, naturally God keeps placing me into situations where I have no control. I have slowly learned that there is no greater since of hope and joy then when I completely live by faith.
5 Therefore, since we have been justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ. 2 Through him we have also obtained access by faith into this grace in which we stand, and we rejoice in hope of the glory of God. 3 Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that sufferingproduces endurance, 4 and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, 5 and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
Romans is a perfect "go to" book for those who struggle as I have. I know first hand how scary it can be to release control but the fact that my life's greatest moments is when I have the least control. What is special in Romans is that the Apostle Paul says shows that faith brings hope to the nation but on top of that he explains that everyday importance of living in God. I want to challenge you to pray to God and release that control you are holding on to if that is finances, hurt relationships, or worries of the future. It is in God's control, stop pretending you have a say, it will only cause pain.

The Importance of Mentors

Having mentors in my life have greatly helped me. I can not stress how much this means to me. I have seen so many people in a place lost with no answer or strength to carry on. When you have someone in faith with God to help keep you accountable and give advice, you can find hope. God never ment for us to walk in faith alone, we are a family. Yet, satin is great at trying to make people feel isolated and hurt to the point where we leave our faith in a life of depression. Having a mentor, friend, leader, being there can change that. 

We are all made to be a friend, leader, or mentor to others. I absolutely love helping my small group. Don't' get me wrong I usually have no clue what to say, but that is where God always provides in my life. I pray over my girls and ask for god's wisdom. I do get extremely drained spiritually though. 

I look towards my leaders and friends at these time and am so thankful they are here for me. Man, God  is so amazing to place people in our lives when ask for them. 

Oh, if you are guiding others please continue to pray and read the word. You can not expect to be continually filling others up spiritually with out filling yourself up first. I have made this mistake so many times. To the point where I am so tired God makes me stop and reassess my situation. 

I look greatly towards Paul's journey as a leader he never took credit, humbling himself completely to the point where you saw that God deserved all the praise and rejoicing. I strive and pray to be this kind of leader. I don't want people to think that I am wise or worthy of being a leader but that I love God so much that I have faith he will do everything that I need to spread his work and love. 

What are your experiences with mentors? Anything that has changed you? Please share.